Affect

I told people you have no impact over me whatsoever

But I lied, of course. How can it be?

I’m just pretending to be okay, but deep down I’m fucking hurt

How can you be alright after someone gave up on you, telling you indirectly that you’re not worth it? 
I hope, someday, you’ll understand how I feel.

Type

You told me you like a girl who’s:

a.

b.

and c.

and I’m all about X, Y, and Z.

But

Deepdown I know you wouldn’t like me. How could you like me?

A flawed, ugly, scarred, person. Who has been hurt so bad she actually thinks all her decisions are bad…

In between

Personally, I don’t really like ambiguous people

I take pride in knowing what people would do before they actually do things

But you’re different

I don’t know what you’re up to, and I really hope I do…..

(is this the guy I really need tho? the one who keeps me on my toes and keeps me guessing? who I admire, and respect, and a guy who actually laugh to my jokes? who told me my flaws in front of my face, when nobody dares to? who I look forward to talk to - everyday? just because i know we have a whole universe to talk about..)